*gasp..
Shocking, I know.
Last week was a rough one. It was just one of those weeks where I just couldn't seem to gather the strength I needed for the battle. Where all attempts made left me feeling a little farther behind than where I had even started. Then one more sleepless (by that I mean no sleep. at all.) night knocked me out of the fight all together. I felt completely defeated. Done. d-o-n-e.
Then God spoke something so clearly to me...
Then God spoke something so clearly to me...
We must first acknowledge our brokenness before we can be repaired.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
Why are we so leery to admit when we feel weak? Even to God who sees and knows already? It is first instinct to gird ourselves up and put on our I'm-ok-face. I don't want to do that anymore. I'm ok with not being ok as long as I'm letting God in to make up for my not-okayness. Get it? Hope so..
So, I have picked up my sword once again. I may not feel like I have won yet, but I know The One who has..
So, I have picked up my sword once again. I may not feel like I have won yet, but I know The One who has..
just found your blog ... love it ... love your honesty and love for God ... and i love kari jobe also!
ReplyDeleteSo true. One of my favorites is Psalm 62...My soul finds rest in God alone, my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation. He is my fortress, I will never be shaken. Praying you find rest and refreshment in the coming days!
ReplyDeleteI love this post Brandy. I so get this and You're so right...if we can just let Him fight the battle for us and find rest in that. That's what's hard for me..
ReplyDeleteWow, Brandy. Thank you for having the courage to post this. It seriously brought tears to my eyes. We live in a society that teaches us that women (and everyone, really) need to be strong. It's easy to feel like a failure. Thankfully, our strength comes from Christ and his mercies are new each day, each moment! Praying for you!
ReplyDeleteI should be working on My Joshua assignment right now for your hubby's class but he mentioned your blog to us at CTC today and I just wanted to check it out. It's beautiful and I don't even know you yet but love your transparency. I am sure you are an inspiration and so relate-able to many. Also, just to pass on to you some words of encouragement that I received when my kids were little..the words were that the days go slow but the years go fast. Actually, it was true. One day you'll look back and say..where did the years go? when did they grow up?
ReplyDeleteWhat a gift our children are. Strength to you, keep on writing, what a great blog!